It's been so long,
And you must know by now I'm not coming back.
But I see you,
Shrinkin' into nothing, just a dot of blue against black.
I wanted to find myself.
Well, you can really you find yourself,
When there is nothing else to find.
And I miss you so.


It feels like yesterday,
We were counting time.
And you said your piece,
While I swallowed mine,
And said, 'I have to go.'


Fifteen years of anhedonia,
Ten sick days and a compact car.
Every day you're drivin', drivin',
Never seem to go that far.
Nothing seems to work right any more,
Nothing seems to make much sense.
Packed in tight but always lonely,
Six pills a day but always tense.
Fifteen years of anhedonia,
Ten sick days and a compact car.
Can't quite figure out who owns ya,
Can't quite find that Northern Star.


I had to go.
I can't explain, but I had to go,
And I see you still,
Almost gone, just a dot of blue against black.
I started shaking on the launchpad.
It was so damn loud.
And I wanted to tell you,
To tell you I was wrong.
And I miss you so.


It feels like yesterday,
We were counting stars.
And I felt so thin,
That I could come apart,
And I had to go.


Fifteen years of anhedonia,
Ten sick days and a compact car.
Every day you're drivin', drivin',
Never seem to go that far.
Nothing seems to work right any more,
Nothing seems to make much sense.
Packed in tight but always lonely,
Six pills a day but always tense.
Fifteen years of anhedonia,
The old pink slip and a six month lease.
Comin' up short and laughing, laughing,
Laughin' 'til you're sick at the thought of peace.
Start to panic in the break room,
Break down when you're in the car.
Try to sleep but no such luck so
Death wish on that Northern Star.
Fifteen years of anhedonia,
Payments on that fucking car.
Can't quite figure out who owns ya,
Can't quite find that Northern Star.
Every day you're drivin', drivin',
Never seem to go that far.
Can't quite figure out who owns ya,
Can't quite find that Northern Star.


Well you can really find yourself
When there is nothing else to find.
Well you can really find yourself
When there is nothing else to find.
Well you can really find yourself
When there is nothing else to find.
Well you can really find yourself
When there is nothing else to find.
Well you can really find yourself
When there is nothing else to find.
Well you can really find yourself
When there is nothing else to find.


And I miss you so.